Monday, March 21, 2011

That's that.

You ever had a serious fight with a friend?  I just had one. I thought when it was all over I’d feel like a disgusting little swamp creature, but I don’t. I did everything I could. To make a long story short, I’ll never fight with that friend again. It’s the first time I’ve actually cut someone off. I hate it. The thought of cutting this person off made me feel like a monster. Some people make it look so easy. Just erase their number, block their calls and that’s the end of it, and that’s that. How can people do it so easily? Toss people aside like they’re a pair of old socks. I wish this was easy. It’s hell.
I have this idea, which probably is the root of many problems really, which tells me that God puts people into my life. When someone comes into my life, I feel that they have been put there for me to take care of. I don’t always do the greatest job, but that doesn’t stop me from trying.
But this person was not going to let me help them. They were just hurting themselves and hurting me and the more I tried to fix it, the more hurting and yelling and fighting went on. I really did not know what the right thing to do was.
So I talked to the most reasonable person I know; my friend Michael.  I explained things to him, and he’s the one who convinced me that I would not be a monster for ending my relationship with this friend permanently.
Maybe I should have prayed or something, but …
I hope that one day my friend believes me that I cut them off because I am convinced it is the best thing to do~ The best way to be their friend. I am so terribly sorry that it came to this.
And that’s that.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

The Legend of the Rassmussen Plantation

Okay Guys~

 This is the beginning of a story I have been playing with for a few years, and finally I am sitting down to write it out properly. So I want your honest reactions to it; the good the bad and the ugly. If you hate it, tell me why so I can fix it.If you like it, tell me why so I can be vain and feel good about myself. :) Thanks.

The Legend of
the Rassmussen Plantation

Alyce Rassmussen was the most beautiful woman in Louisiana, and possibly the wealthiest.  Her father owned an enormous, sprawling plantation where they grew tobacco and sugar cane, and spilled over into the bayous, where nothing grew but moss and mud and fog that obscured everything, where the alligators lurked in the cold, black water and frogs chirped in the warm, humid evenings. Her father’s family had been there for as long as anyone could remember, prestigious, haughty, and wealthy from the first. Her mother had immigrated from Romania,  Gabriela Biaram, an impoverished, uneducated and remarkably beautiful girl, with a laugh like falling gold coins, and hypnotic eyes that held you in them with just a glance. From the moment that he saw her, skipping rocks into the bayou, running barefooted through the fog like a wild little animal, laughing her enchanting, intoxicating laugh, he knew that that she had to be his. He married her at the young, young age of fifteen, and she bare him two daughters before disappearing back into the fog that had produced her. He never remarried, but raised the two girls on his own, with the occasional, passing help of nannies or governesses; Alyce and Madeline. They looked very much like their mother- dark, heavy eyelashes and dark, curled hair. Alyce and Madeline were both famous from the time they were two years old for their beauty, until the night ten-year-old Madeline was found wandering the halls of their mansion screaming and pulling fistfuls of hair from her head, wild-eyed and feverish; from that night on, she was locked away in a spare room, and never spoken of again, leaving Alyce’s fame free to increase without competition. Alyce’s dark, captivating eyes, her laugh like bells ringing, her long, curling hair, her perfect petite shape and her porcelain, almost white skin. The talk and the toast, the belle of every ball- but most especially of the Monster’s Ball, the Halloween Masquerade her father hosted every year at their home.
She was dressed as Midnight this year; a navy blue dress overlain with shimmering miniature stars, and a round silver disk in her black hair like a full moon. Her mask was real silver, with stars engraven on it, and a navy satin ribbon to tie it around her face.
“You look very much like your mother.”
Alyce turned away from her mirror to look briefly at her maid, “I hardly think anyone knows what she looks like, least of all you,” she turned back to her reflection, “She’s old and wrinkled now, crazy like Madeline and hiding out in some swamp. Me, on the other hand…”
Alyce stood, and picked up the long-handled mirror from off her dresser. She twirled a circle with it, gazing at her reflection. “Every man at the Monster’s Ball will be watching every step I take, every twirl of my skirt, every bat of my lashes, every sip I take from my cup… and they’ll watch each other, too. Green-eyed they’ll watch to see who I smile at, to whom I pass a whisper… and how they’ll vie and jockey for a position by my side.” She lowered the mirror and went to the window, then looked down at the carriages about to arrive.
“The fools!” she giggled. “Poor fools, you think that any of you are good enough for me?” She tied the silver mask about her face, and let her poor, fumbling maid tie a perfect bow behind her head. “Do you want to know who the Monster is, at the Monster’s Ball?” She batted her eyelashes perfectly and smiled her pretty, feminine smile.
“I am.”

Sidenote: (By the way, this next part is Fifty years later... you'll understand as the story goes on)


Chapter Two

            “Toast and warm milk.”
            The waitress set the warm order out on the table and smiled, a drained, tired kind of smile, but a genuine and friendly smile nonetheless.
            “Seems kinda like a breakfast meal, don’t it? People do strange things nowadays.”
            The man at the table looked up at her. He, too, looked tired, drained, weary.
            “Breakfast? Well, yeah, I reckon it does, but people have been eating toast at five o’clock before 1913, miss. Much obliged to you for cookin’ it up, even ‘round suppertime.”
“Pleasure, mister.  Anything else I can bring ya?”
“A little more butter. I like my toast all buttered up.”
“Why sure. Be right back.”
The waitress brushed her long red hair back from her face, and turned back into the kitchen. She looked around briefly for the cook, Abram, but didn’t see him, so scooped up a pat of his butter onto a plate to take back out to the weary-looking man.
“Girl, han’t I tole ya not t’be stealin’ from my butter bowl?” a voice came from behind.
She smiled lightly and turned around.
“Well, now, Abram, I didn’t see you there. You don’t mind my borrowing  just a little bit of your butter do ya?” She cocked her head to the side and smiled her winning little half-smile. She knew that Abram was a tough old alligator, the share-cropping grandson of former slaves, but he had a real sweet spot in his heart for her.
Abram laughed, “Cinnamon chile, you know that smile don’ work on ole Abram no more. You smiled your way outta trouble too many times, that’s what.”
The waitress, Cinnamon, opened her blue eyes wide and innocent, and batted them.
“Oh, now, Abram, you know I’m just a poor little woman, on my own and trying to put bread on my table. How’m I gonna get a good tip from this gentleman if I don’t get him just a little ole butter when he asked so nice and polite? Now c’mon Abram. You ain’t gonna take a little butter from a poor working girl, I just know you ain’t, not a kind soul like you, not a sweet old fella like you, what can cook the best gumbo in Louisiana.”
Abram may have blushed, Cinnamon could never tell beneath his dark skin, but he laughed again and swelled up like a proud bullfrog.
“What you need butter for girl? Seems you got enough butter up yo sleeve, the way you butter ole Abram up so easy. Go on an take it out to your polite gentleman and get yo tip you need so bad.”
Cinnamon giggled, “Thanks Abram.” And pecked him lightly on his cheek as she passed him on her way back out to the restaurant floor.
The man hadn’t yet touched his food when Cinnamon got back to him, and looked up with a start when she reached his side, like he had been lost in reverie.
“Had to wrestle a gator for it, but here you go.” she said, setting the butter before him.
“Thanks, miss.” He said, absently stirring his milk.
“Haven’t seen you ‘round here before mister. You just passin’ through?”
“Yeah, just passing through.”
Cinnamon smiled. She’d just caught him in a lie. He was hiding something. She sat down across from him.
“Yeah? Where you passin’ to? We’re right upfront a bayou, and nothing north of here you couldn’t get to faster by passing through another town, which means you ain’t passing through at all, but you don’t want me to know what you doin’ here. Why’s that?”
The man looked rebuffed for just a moment, but then just smiled lightly, “I had better improve my story I reckon.”
“Yeah, I reckon you’d better.” Cinnamon smiled, “You’re not here to make trouble are ya?”
“No,” the man said, “no, good Lord. I’m a lawyer. I’m here about an estate settlement. But it’s a private business, and I know how small town gossip travels.”
“Do ya?”
“Born and raised in a small town, miss. Now get along and don’t bother me anymore.”
Satisfied, Cinnamon went back to the kitchen. Again, she looked around for Abram, and this time found him at once.
“Abram, you know that polite gentleman out there?”
“Yes, girl, yes and I seen you out there botherin’ that po’ man, and I don’ want to know where he from or where he goin’ or why he come here, who knows what all. You gots to learn to leave a body alone and stop pokin’ yo nose where it don’ belong, or you gwienna fin yo’self wich yo nose in a trap you cain’t git outta one day.”
“Oh, Abram you mean. You a mean ole man.”

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

I stole this from my boyfriend cause it cracks me up

What's cookin' good lookin'?

I love to cook. I am not terribly good at it, but I do like it quite a lot and I especially like trying new things, like;


RADISH AND AVOCADO SANDWICH

mmmmm this is tasty

Thinly sliced large radishes, tossed in extra virgin olive oil, lemon juice and coarse salt. (I'm going to use kosher salt, since it is the best.) Mash fresh avocado on to lightly toasted wheat bread, then layer the sliced radishes. Sprinkle with fresh ground pepper.
Does anyone have a good idea what else to put on it? It's delicious, but it's missing something...

And here is deliciousness #2:
CABBAGE AND GREEN APPLE SALAD
 
4 cups shredded cabbage
2 green apples, matchstick cut
1/2 cup plain greek yogurt                                  
1 finely chopped red chile
1 T cider vinegar
1 T minced ginger
1 tsp toasted mustard or sesame seed
1 tsp kosher salt
1/2 tsp toasted cumin seed
optional shaved radishes



Try them out and tell me what you think!

The Home Teachers are here

Monday, March 14, 2011

Let's Dance

Nothing is better than dancing. Nothing. Not even kissing.

I cannot hear a song that I like without immediately starting to dance to it in my head.  And I will tell you something, dancing was not meant to be done alone. Any dance in the world is done better with a prop, and even better still with a partner. Dancing is talking with out saying anything- it crosses all language barriers and conveys pure emotion. I can express beauty and serenity or I can express loneliness and  heartache in a waltz, I can flirt and flounce in a cha-cha, I can sass in a west coat, I can tell you come on or to back off... and you will know just which is which.

I think I like it so well because I have a hard time getting my thoughts and emotions into words. Oh sure, I can write stories pretty well, I can use words very well sometimes, but I am better and showing things than telling them. Body language is what I speak fluently. Hips don't lie, baby, and that's the d*mn truth, especially not mine.


Come dance with me...

Broken Hearts and Vampires

First of all I must warn you that as I write this, I am sitting down with a warm cup of much-needed coffee. When other people get their hearts busted, they go drink booze. Coffee is my booze. 
I've been very wicked lately and have discovered the joys of 'True Blood'. For those who don't know, it's about Vampires and Louisiana. It's quite entertaining.

 

It's a good thing I have True Blood to occupy me, because my True Love certainly isn't. He's sick. He told me it's not serious, but I kinda hope he's just being manly because he has perfectly neglected me for the past week. My friends have started teasing me, saying that no man is going to abstain from a girl he's really into for a week because he's got a cough- unless he's got a pretty something to distract him.The thing is- teasing friends are starting to morph into concerned friends and my giggles at their comments are starting to hush.

He won't answer when I call, and he'll barely answer texts. I want to be angry, or hurt. I'd like to call up and say 'What the hell, baby?'. But I know I won't.
Somewhere between Buddha and Jesus and my own life lessons I've learned how to deal.

Buddha taught me serenity and  patience.
Jesus Christ has taught me love and longsuffering, forgiveness and truth.










 And life has taught me not to cry when people turn on me. People I love won't turn on me.
 
'What?', you may think. 'What? Life should have taught you quite the opposite Miss Meagan Rose.'
Let me explain. Let's say I meet someone named Tyler. As I get to know Tyler, I find him honest, kind, loyal and loving. So we fall in love and start dating. Then one day Tyler snaps and hits me and throws me into a wall. At first I know I will be upset, I'll cry and want to punch his lights out. But then I realize; the Tyler I knew would never do that. The Tyler I knew would be protective and loving. So this person I have now, is not who I loved. So why should I cry? I was hit by a stranger, not by the person I love. Just walk away, just let go, and keep on looking because somewhere out there is the person I love, he just looks different and has a different name than I thought.

"I'm sorry. I mistook you for someone else."

So it turns out Tyler was just a vampire, just a blood sucker masquerading as someone I love. That's no reason to let him turn me into his kind.

 1 Thessalonians 5:6
Ye are all the children of light, and the children of the day: we are not of the night, nor of darkness.



Funny things you can learn, and in funny places. Somewhere between Buddah, Life, the Scriptures and True Blood, I found solace.

Disclaimer: This was written quite a while ago, and saved in my drafts. True Love and I are doing great, so I wasn't going to post this, but I like the way it sounds, so up it goes. And yes, I eventually did yell at him. So much for serenity. Hopefully Buddha forgives, too.